eehaa.

eehaa.

esok pergi Bintulu.

one week.

internet-LESS.

astro-LESS.

haha.

nevermind.

still bringing my laptop along.

take care everyone.

ada masa kelak blogging agik.

eehaa.

=.=

Happy Birthday Melina ku! =)

hiha.

hari ini dalam sejarah.

1. aku belom mandik and now jam dah pukol 1201.

2. aku nak mandik, tp jerawat di hidong membesar macam kawah bulan mok pecah dah.

3. dadi pegi emart tp sik balit-balit gik.

4. inuk pun belom mandik.

5. esok pegi BINTULU. yiihaa. babai MIRI.

6. esok birthday Melina. =)

7. si kitty (pusak baru) dah belajar tido macam si memew.

kelak sambong gik. tata.

:)

lupak mok padah.

 

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA.

boring.

AKU MOK TUKAR KE BLOGSPOT.

SEBAB WORDPRESS PUN LAYOUT lame tahap cimpanzi.

AND WORDPRESS SIK DAPAT TUKAR FONT.

SEDEH.

plans.

somehow i cant wait to get back to Kuching.

due to:

1. can spend more time with parents tersayang.

2. mok jumpa anak buahss.

3. mok jumpa kawan-kawan yang dirindui!

4. of course la mok celebrate birthday kat kampung halaman dikpun!

december?

EXAM RESULTS WILL BE RELEASED.

tok nyuroh mood december aku spoil tok.

=X

aku tetap berserah.

aku dah cuba sedaya upaya and dah cuba yang terbaik.

selebihnya, insyaAllah.

…

this ruined my day.

yes, SHIT happens.

but takkan all the time?

aku naik menyampah bila orang cari aku time SUSAH tapi bila senang dilupakan macam sampah.

anyway aku bukan mintak simpati atau perhatian sesiapa.

aku cuma ingin meluah isi hati aku yang tersirat.

stop being hypocrite! aku benci orang hipokrit. terutamanya ENGKAU.

tell me what should i do now?

it took me one year untuk move on without you.

it took me a year to heal up the situation.

it took me a year to come back to my own senses and to learn on the mistakes that i’ve done in my past.

and not to repeat them again!

it took me a year to completely learn on the flows of a life as a teenager.

it took me one year to realize all the bad deeds that ive done.

we have been together for three years.

three years.

3 years.

but now.

im sorry.

i tried but i just cant.

i cant force my own feelings.

i’d choose to be alone and to survive on my own,

rather than…

*sighs*

and to some of my friends who called me just now. sorry that i didnt really entertain u guys. not that i dont want to listen to ur problems, i was having my own bad times too. so, fair and square kan?

kau kata aku tak berubah? HEY, im moving on. at least aku tak jadi hipokrit macam KAU. to whom it may concern, jangan kaco idup aku agik. aku sik kaco idup kau, jangan kaco idup aku. jangan babitkan orang lain dalam kesedihan kau.

=)

from this little box wrapped with red wrapping paper…

..to..

this black leather made watch.

thanks Kak Iza & Abg Man.

really appreciate this watch.

will take good care of it.

thanks alot! =)

band + ing.

tolong. tolong. tolong.

aku tak suka dibandingkan dengan siapa-siapa. jadi, tolong jangan bandingkan aku dengan sesiapa yang berkenaan or tidak berkenaan di luar sana. aku tetap diri aku. orang lain ada pendirian masing-masing, aku pun ada pendirian aku sendiri. and jugak. aku akui segala peristiwa silam adalah sebahagian kelemahan diri aku. aku insaf. aku sedar aku jahat. aku tahu aku tak pandai hargai perasaan dan pengorbanan orang lain. AKU SEDAR. and aku ada alasan aku tersendiri kenapa aku jadi begini sekarang.

and. yes, anda sememangnya benar. aku ego. aku jahat. aku pentingkan diri. orang lain hargai anda tapi bukan aku. salah aku kan? aku mintak maaf sekali lagi. cuma, aku dalam proses mengembalikan diri aku dari zaman silam aku. aku akui itu semua kesalahan aku. itu kesilapan silam aku. katakanlah ini semua luahan sampah dari aku. lantakla. yang penting, aku ada alasan aku tersendiri. dan. tolonglah. aku tak suka dibandingkan. aku ada hal aku, orang lain ada hal orang lain.

sorry kalau anda yang membaca terasa tersinggung. oleh kerana aku berserabut dan stress di saat final exam, aku mudah tersinggung. bila aku tersinggung, inilah yang terjadi. oleh itu, sekali lagi, aku mintak maaf.

Bye.

…

mak & daddy.

i miss you both so much.

sedehhhh.

nevermind.

i’m doing this for both of you.

i love you both so much.

=)

triple dots.

hello world. ive been away for quite some time due to busy-ness. currently listening to purest of pain. that’s the song that i love to listen everytime when i’m down or some say mood-less.

okay. back to life. this semester, let me rephrase, Engineering First Year, First Semester. i dont know how i should describe this sem. there were lots of things happened. lots of things being learnt. lots of things been observed. lots of things experienced. lots of problems faced. lots of ups and downs. lots of dilemmas. lots of hardships. i can still smile. ive faced macam-macam stuffs this semester. which is like urrghh. menyakitkan.

studies. been lagging in lectures. been lagging in tutorials. been lagging in labs. been lagging in quizzes. wth kan? i wish i could turn back time. i wish things were like last semester. although there were times i was down, i still manage to get up and move on with life. what’s going on with me? i attended classes like usual. i did my part in tutorials. i did my assignments. but still, what is wrong with me? i feel a sudden change in myself. is it me or the surrounding is changing, i dont know. life as a degree student is not an easy task. ure always busy, and u seldom can spend time with ur loved ones. that’s from my point of view. agree or not, lantakla. somehow i feel so aimless this semester. where goes all my target, where goes all my goals? sighs. there is something changing drastically around me, and i know it comes right from myself.

i’m just an ordinary girl. i have my own strengths and my own weaknesses. some ppl may think im hypocrite. some ppl may think i’m selfish. whatever you guys are saying, that is your right as a human being. i cant shut your mouth. i cant stop what you are saying. i’m just being me. if you are not comfortable with that, approach me but dont talk bullshits behind me. say you are in my situation, how would you feel? dont mention the word bestfriend. please define the meaning of that word before you can call yourself as my bestfriend. sometimes, i just cant understand why things are going like this. i spend my time sitting down and observing people around me. say what you wanna say, i’m still me and nothing can change that.

sometimes, life can be very unfair. people get what they wanted, what they wished but that dont happen all the time to me. sometimes, things happen by luck. but, whatever it is. this is what i learned as a student of Curtin. been here for 3 sems. it taught me something. be thankful for whatever that you have. appreciate whatever that is apparently in front of you. dont ask for something which is beyond your own limitation. and also. when life is unfair, there is always a time where life can be fair. it’s like a path directing you to something in the future. we cant predict what will happen to us in the future, but at the mean time, we can still change our own future before the future decides everything for us. and also. whatever bullshits from some weird people out there, biarlah. i dont mind you guys judging. continue doing so. who knows, from there i got the initiative to improve my own self for the better. good also kan?

friends. i miss my friends back in Kuching. i miss my friends back in Foundation year. we’ve been through a lot of hurdles to together. been through ups and downs together. i seriously miss my Foundation year. that time, everything went so well. no crisis, no issues, no backstabbing, no bullshitting. macam-macam la. to miss D, thanks for being supportive to me. thanks for your endless advices. to ina, malik and naz. yea. i know this sem very busy jarang spend time with you guys. but you guys are never dilupakan. diingati sentiasa cuma jarang ada masa mok jumpa and hangout kdak dolok. the rest, thanks guys and girls. Foundation year was great. tadaa. =)

finals. prrghh. it’s like 5 days to go. i know i shouldnt be here blogging. but sighs. what to do? this is like the way to kill one the percentage of stress. haha. hey, this year is a tough one. i dont know why. and to uncle sonny, uncle benny, izzat and jia menn. thanks for always being there to help me, listen to my stories and so on. best of luck for finals and let’s embrace the future together! haha.

Nazrin Arif. if you are reading this blog, sorry lamak dah sik contact ktk. just wanna wish you all the best and goodluck for your upcoming SPM. awin boleh bahh. all the best okay? go little kidd!

Muhammad Asyraf Iskandar. hey. =) lamak sik dgr berita ktk. take good care of yourself in UTP. and not forgotten, good luck and all the best for your final exam.

Melina Lynn Minos & Nur Azreen Hoklai. anak anak dara sekalian. hehe. sik lamak gik STPM. mun baca blog tok, just mok padah goodluck ngan ktk duak. (antara orang terpenting tok) haha. kelak mek balit Kuching kita jumpa okay? kerinduan oii!

Noraihan Pauzi. ohh anak dara tok. nang lamak la sik dgr berita. hehe. ktk orang pun finals gik lamak oww. hehe. han, mek rindu tak seriously. kelak balit Kch catch up ngan ktk. goodluck juak oi!

Adlin Baizura . Nur Diana Ibrahim. Natasha Nur Amarina. Nurul Khairunnisa Hanani. Nursafiah. Qin Qintashia. rindu tak orang ehh. eee. goodluck and all the best semua!

hujung tahun mesti macam-macam exam klua. haihh.

okay. got to go now.

ALL THE BEST KAWAN-KAWAN. =)

doubleZee.